Ramadhan came and so it went, just like that, in the blink of an eye. I tried my best to come close with God during that time. I hope I've succeeded. Lebaran this time was very special in the sense that I was at home to celebrate it with my family after about 5 years. Ramadhan after 5 years of being away was quite inviting, of course there were things I missed, but overall it was ok- Alhamdulillah!! What I liked most was having 'kanji' for ifthar almost everyday, without beef the porridge wouldn't be complete either.
In my family we've been following a tradition ever since I can remember; on Eid day the men go to both burial grounds where our grandparents have been buried, and recite Sura Yaseen for them. Its done after prayers, and luckily over here mosques conduct prayers more than once. In the morning, the men make preparations to grill the satay- nothing like getting things fired up. Over here, no satay means, to me, lebaran is incomplete. Its like an essential part of the celebrations, which I really want to carry on in time to come. Wonder if Malay girls these days can make satay?!? It was a feeling of content throughout the day, felt very good.
Turning 25 is a big step, I suppose, because for one thing you've been alive so long. I remember a year ago I was thinking what I achieved, but nothing seemed to show or come to mind. And this time, I am jobless meaning its a down-grade comparing my 'employed' status of last year. Amidst all of this, hope flickers eternally within me thinking that good things take time. Patience son....it will come your way. In my family b'day parties are not the norm, rather its like any other day, its just that we go out for lunch or dinner. The only party I can remember is when being a year old (no.. memory is not that sharp!!), that too thanks to photos. But I always look forward to b'day wishes from family, and that is one of my expectations.
The theory behind expectations is that you shouldn't have any expectations. Period. I live by that rule and thus far it has served me well. I don't expect people to remember my b'day and wish me, because if I do that and they don't, I would be disappointed. That in turn would lead me to be judgemental about others for trivial things. So...I don't want that drama. A 130 b'day wishes on fb is quite satisfactory. But when it comes to others I make it a point to wish them on their special moments/days/achievements because I want to. Hey, I may not have any expectations, but it doesn't mean others don't. Neither do I expect presents from anyone either, nor am I the kind to reject it. I'm grateful to Allah for giving me this much, which in itself is a blessing. I try to be grateful for the little things I have and not be superficial or materialistic; certainly not good for the health.
In my family we've been following a tradition ever since I can remember; on Eid day the men go to both burial grounds where our grandparents have been buried, and recite Sura Yaseen for them. Its done after prayers, and luckily over here mosques conduct prayers more than once. In the morning, the men make preparations to grill the satay- nothing like getting things fired up. Over here, no satay means, to me, lebaran is incomplete. Its like an essential part of the celebrations, which I really want to carry on in time to come. Wonder if Malay girls these days can make satay?!? It was a feeling of content throughout the day, felt very good.
Turning 25 is a big step, I suppose, because for one thing you've been alive so long. I remember a year ago I was thinking what I achieved, but nothing seemed to show or come to mind. And this time, I am jobless meaning its a down-grade comparing my 'employed' status of last year. Amidst all of this, hope flickers eternally within me thinking that good things take time. Patience son....it will come your way. In my family b'day parties are not the norm, rather its like any other day, its just that we go out for lunch or dinner. The only party I can remember is when being a year old (no.. memory is not that sharp!!), that too thanks to photos. But I always look forward to b'day wishes from family, and that is one of my expectations.
The theory behind expectations is that you shouldn't have any expectations. Period. I live by that rule and thus far it has served me well. I don't expect people to remember my b'day and wish me, because if I do that and they don't, I would be disappointed. That in turn would lead me to be judgemental about others for trivial things. So...I don't want that drama. A 130 b'day wishes on fb is quite satisfactory. But when it comes to others I make it a point to wish them on their special moments/days/achievements because I want to. Hey, I may not have any expectations, but it doesn't mean others don't. Neither do I expect presents from anyone either, nor am I the kind to reject it. I'm grateful to Allah for giving me this much, which in itself is a blessing. I try to be grateful for the little things I have and not be superficial or materialistic; certainly not good for the health.
Well...here you are, you crazy bugger. Happy b'day and come what may!!
It's going to be one heck of a ride....
It's going to be one heck of a ride....
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